Deborah Cox with R.L. - We Can't Be Friends

missed !! 08'

Missed.. .

I am sorry .. I missed what you said. I’m listening , please repeat.

missed calls, missed opportunities. Did you say missed? That’s what I thought I heard. Words foretelling months of pre meditated lies. Well only to myself. I missed the part where I was supposed to read between the lines. I missed you. You missed me to. But lucky for you I made a pit stop , cause you almost missed this train . Missed the part where you were supposed to care? I missed it too.

Maybe this was to be missed , because when the sun rises and all has changed, then who will be missed?

I think you missed my point.

Road untraveled .. 08'

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The long road un-traveled. where does it really bring you. Possibly in circles. Possibly to a dead end. perhaps even to a location that you never imagined to arrive at. Are you wiser because of the decisions you have made or restless because you want to erase that last mark on the page.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? While you wait in the corner for your feelings of content to flourish.. think about what you say and what you do..

today is another day where you can let music heal your soul and even though it’s cold outside, have faith in something. Whether or not you care for the warm weather or another rainy day .. it’s all inevitable. Random thoughts? yes. But you follow to the beat to of your own drum .

My un-traveled road led me to more decisions. and ultimately a circle. DO we even go there again? The toll booth collector awaits an answer.. I am still pending this transaction. Perhaps.. these circles we drive in are just constant reminder of an area that we have been here before and there is more to explore.

Eh .. Snow makes you think .. and over think some more..

for now.. I take my cold ass to bed.. until the next road trip.
xoxo

Fractured

Fracture. well maybe just a small part.
But broken none the less.
Flawless .. Never.. But now my once joyful soul is a tad quieter then before.
The hills are no longer alive with the sound of music.
They are ash and soot. I will walk along with my head held high, saying.. It may be painful ,... but it’s worth it.
Knowing what makes me.. Nothing should break me.. But I'm fractured.
My ego has a chip on its shoulder.. History often does repeat itself.
And the DJ said one more time for the play boys in the back..
If it were a hip-hop beat.. It was sampled.
Unfortunately.. I wrote the first track too.
Thoughts of my Sunday kinda love on a Monday just isn't sitting right
Keeping it in the shadows.. Not trying to see the light.
I'm focused .. But what..
It’s impossible.. Or is it just tough..
If the road to hell is paved with good intentions perhaps I'm on a path to purgatory
Because I'm stuck. I need to not give a fuck..
Envying the women who just walk away..
Wondering if it’s real or a front..
God just grant me an ounce of that to smile in the face of despair
Because I need to get it together.. And get the hell up outta here.. 

Just keep swimming .. (07)

Doing what I gotta do as long as I can do it..

Situations overwhelming .. Just keep swimming... just keep swimming ..

Another interview ... fuck .. I blew it ..

No place in ...because I’m out .. And out has never looked so dark ..

No substance is keeping me above ground.. And I’m not about to accept an award and thank the heavenly father.. But hey .. Good looking out ..

The box where I reside is noisy .. But I shut it out and make it home sweet home..

Feelings on failure pass my door step, but how much of this is really my fault .. I followed most of the rules.. Right .. Well shit I use map quest and we all know how that goes.. ** This street may not exist anymore***

Well it doesn’t .. And the dirt path that I walk barefooted .. is humbling .. And everyone should add some humble in their tea..

Perfect not by far, but I’m trying .. But I guess altruism doesn’t get you room and board..

The little things in life get you by .. Music and comedy and friends and fam..laughter is the cure.. but not the answer..

when you give too much of your self and are only left with lint in your pocket .. will you still be laughing ... ehh not really ..  well .. this is where I’m at .. and you’re welcome to come and visit ..

but for now I go to sleep and start over tomorrow... just keep swimming ... just keep swimming ,...

Come Close (07)

Come closer..

Don’t be shy ..

Besides aren’t I the one who should be running away..

I have seen you many times .. And so often you make me smile ..

So come closer ... Don’t be shy...

We have our days .. where I put you away ..

Pretending you doesn’t exist to get through my days..

But for now .. Come closer and don’t be shy ..

I thought I had perfected you ..Once I was injected by you ..

So come closer and don’t be shy ..

I don’t recall when we first met ..

But you have been there all along ..

Every day and night ... different lyric .. Same song ..

Different beat .. But the rhythms keep me moving ..

So come closer and don’t be shy ..

As a grown woman I have seen you in your fullest force.. And I accept the whirlwind we spin in ..

So come closer and don’t be shy .

Cause LOVE .. U always seem to just keep passing by .. 

Focused ... well Sort of . (07')

A plan .. Yeah I got it.. A theory... sure I copped it ..

But things aren’t always the way they seem.

Happy .. Sure I smile.. Pissed .. And I turn up a lip..

But things aren’t always what that seem.

Again my head hurts.. Too much is getting through today ..

A brief intermission when I joke.. But is it really game time..

It’s like having a cold and eating something tasty,... it tastes like metal ..

Things are really not always how they seem..

When all your rights seem wrong and all your wrongs seem like you should make them right .. I say fuck it ..

if it needs to be deciphered Im out !!

Ehh .. Its bed time..Maybe in the morning things won’t be so foggy ..

God willing